Once again....cd 3....we just keep going and going...

Well....once again....another cycle has come and gone with no luck for us. I have been feeling sad about this lately. I look at where I would have been in my pregnancy (I would be about 5 months now!) and it makes me so very sad. DH gets sad when I talk about it too. But, I guess it doesn't do any good to look back and think about "what if"....we have to move forward and worry about what is to come. So.....on to our next cycle...and the hopefulness begins again.

The start of yet another cycle...

I haven't made an entry to this journal for quite a while. I guess I am still not quite up to being excited about TTC again yet. Another unsuccessful cycle has come and gone since I last wrote and I am currently on 1 DPO today. I can't stop myself from being at least a little hopeful each month...but things sure have changed. I guess getting pregnant in May really lifted my spirits and made me believe that we could really do this, despite the odds against us. Now, four months since the miscarriage...I am not so sure any longer. I can't stop thinking that that was our only chance and we ruined it somehow. I know that this is not a rational thought, but I can't stop myself from thinking it. I stopped taking Clomid as it really appeared to upset my cycle more than it seemed to help. Also, what it did to my emotions was awful. I know once we go back to the RE in two months (we are giving ourselves one more cycle after this one before seeking further help) they will start me on Clomid again and I am really dreading it. I just really am hoping so hard that we can get pregnant right away. I just can't take this much longer. I don't know how everyone does it...I just don't know how.