As Expected--Negative Beta

I already knew it. I knew my beta would come back negative today....knew it deep in my heart. How did I know it, you ask? Well, because I spent about $100 on pregnancy tests this month. I was crazed again! I was taking them 2 and 3 times a day. Anyway, they were negative (after the hCG injection had worn off) so I knew what to expect today. However,, deep down inside I had a glimmer of hope...that maybe all of those tests were wrong. But alas they weren't. So onward and upward. We want to try IVF again as soon as possible. However, they said we have to take a month off.  That means starting in October sometime with retrieval and transfer sometime in November. It seems so far away!!! It is depressing. I am so very thankful, however, to have insurance that covers most of this procedure. Without it we would not be able to even try. I am very thankful for that. I guess that is why I am not overly upset over this not working. I have so much to be thankful for...and I just know in my heart eventually, I will be a Mommy.