17wOd..Time is flying!!

I don't have a lot to report since my last post, except that the spotting stopped, I have been soooo sick....and I sometimes forget that I am pregnant. You see, I don't feel pregnant at all. After the 35lbs that I gained in the first four weeks of this pregnancy (from quitting smoking and the infertility medications) I haven't gained an ounce. Actually I have lost a few pounds. I am okay with that as the 35lbs that I gained make up for it. Some days I look like my stomach is sticking out a bit, and other days, it looks pretty flat again. I don't look pregnant at all most days...just like I have gained 35 lbs....and that is depressing...but I will live with it. (I have been wearing maternity clothes for about two weeks...trying to look pregnant...but it really doesn't work.) I just can't believe that I am pregnant!!! I don't feel any differently (other than the constant morning sickness). I do get so sick in the evenings that all that I can do is take a nausea pill and then sleep for the rest of the night. I thought this would end soon...but it has been about 6 weeks now...and there is no end in sight. We have our doctor's appointment and an ultrasound tomorrow. Dr. Samuels said we may be able to find out the sex if the baby cooperates. I so hope so...then maybe this pregnancy will seem more real. I thought that I wanted a girl...but now I am thinking it would be nice to have a little boy. It would be great for Paul to have another "man" in the house to play sports with and watch television together. Sometimes, I think poor little Paul feels so overwhelmed living with me and my Mother. Too many hormones in one house. (The other day in reference to me saying I wanted a girl Paul said, "That's all I need another one sitting in a chair and telling me what to do.") He needs an ally. Hopefully we will know tomorrow!