We had our first OB/Perinatologist Appointment yesterday with Dr. Samuels. He seemed glad to see us and to meet Jack for the first time since he was born!
We took a lot of time getting our file up-to-date and then had the ultrasound. There was the tiny little baby with little arms and legs kicking and moving around. It was pretty amazing. And it was pretty scary too. I remember at exactly this point in my pregnancy with Jack, I felt nervous-sick like this. Nervous-sick that this was real and now what were we supposed to do.
Please don't get me wrong. I am thrilled beyond words that we are having a little baby....it is everything that I had ever hoped and dreamed of....but it just seems to become real at this point....and to be honest reality can be scary. It seems you spend so much time hoping and praying for something and then when God finally answers your prayers.....well, it can be a shock.
That said, I hope we are doing the right thing for Jack's sake. I hope that he will not be unhappy after the baby comes...or feel that we love him any less than we do now. (I cannot imagine loving anyone the way that I love my son....but who knows how we will feel once the baby comes.) So far he is so excited about his baby "brother"--oh dear.
Anyway, our little baby had a heartbeat of 173 (good for 9 weeks 3 days). Thank you God for this precious gift.
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