*sniff* Results Are In *sniff*

Well..yesterday, I was so excited. Fertility Friend indicated a possible Triphasic Pattern in my chart on CD #24. I was floating. I thought..OMG, this is it! (paying no attention, of course to the warning that FF is careful to give noting that all triphasic temperature patterns do not result in a pregnancy.) I just KNEW I was Pregnant. I didn't have long to feel euphoric, however. By 10:00am, the doctor from DH's mail-in SA called to give us the results of the test. Six million with 10% motility.  Yes, that means that there is almost no way that we can get pregnant on our own. He suggested 4 IUI's and then ICSI (which really isn't an option due to cost). Didn't he know that I had really thought that I was pg right now and he just ruined it? Why did he have to call? I know I should never have gotten my hopes up and that I should have expected a result like this (especially since DH has been through 2 vasectomies 20 years ago, and two reversals since.) I guess the fact that the last SA done over a year ago indicated a count of 13,000,000...I thought it may have gone way up since then. How stupid of me to get my hopes up like that. My temperature was still up this morning, but I am feeling crampy which could mean that AF may be here soon. This is what kills me...although I KNOW that there is almost NO WAY that I can be pregnant...my heart keeps hanging on to the hope that *maybe* just *maybe* there was a mistake with the SA, or that a miracle has occurred (*stop that*)...I can't help it...I still keep thinking *maybe*...STOP IT!