Exactly One Year Ago Today.....

I just awoke with a start tnight at 12:00 midnight. Almost at the same exact moment that I awoke one year ago today. A year ago, I woke because my water had broken. Our baby girl was coming. I remember the excitement I felt as we got ready to go to the hospital to meet our baby girl. I had to pack first (I was only partially packed because I never thought Mary Katherine would come on her actual due date!) But at just about 12 am on the morning of her due date, our little Katie decided it was time to enter this world.


I don't know why I woke tonight at the very same time. Maybe because a mother has such a deep memory and feelings about the birth of her children....I don't know...but I was awakend from my sleep at the exact time that I knew our baby girl was coming one year ago.

She would be born at 5:17am....and how blessed and happy I feel to have these sweet child as my own. My little blonde head that loves her Mom...but sometimes gets less love and attention from her Mommy than her sweet little self deserves. There is so much happening in our lives that our sweet little girl...so craving of love and contact...is often left stadning there wanting to be picked up, wanting to be paid attention to, wanting to be noticed.

She is noticed and loved so much by her Mommy. Please know that my sweet girl. There are so many demands on our time (your brother, work, the house) that we could not possibly give you as much as we so want to give you....but know that we love you no less...and maybe even more because we can't give you all of the attention that you deserve.

Right now, the sweet baby girl that was still inside me and part of only me one year ago is lying in our bed with a tossled head of damp little blonde curls. After nursing again, she rolled over with her little hands up near her face. Our beautiful baby girl. My heart aches with love for you my sweet baby. Tears are streaming down my face as I am flooded with the love that I feel for you. Please know that my sweet little girl that wants nothing more than to be held and loved. My arms and heart are filled with you even when Mommy isn't holding you. I love you so much sweet baby girl.

Thank you God for bringing this special gift into our lives. I am the luckiest Mommy in the world...because of you Mary Katherine. Happy first birthday baby girl.